Help for Parents

Thursday, 21 July 2016


Hi Everyone,

I came across this some time last year, and only recently remembered it.  I thought I would share it as I think it is lovely.

I like the concepts of longing and desire for someone, aspiring to love another, and faith in the desire.

Enjoy :)

Monday, 17 August 2015

What is Your Prize?

I have an emotional addiction for a woman to look after me.  The addiction has many facets, for example, I want a woman to:

- look after me physically: food, cleaning, washing, ironing etc
- emotionally by making me feel better about myself
- sexually by making me feel good about myself sexually and doing most the ‘work’
- protect me from the world so that I don’t have to feel uncomfortable, or take responsibility for my own choices and actions

I have spent the vast majority of my life being angry towards women so that I get what I want.  Not in an outwardly aggressive way, but more a passive aggressive way, and only to those that I know I can control.

I have been gradually (slowly) working through this addiction over the last 12 months or so.  I feel like things are starting to improve, but I also know that I have much more to do on this particular issue.  However I realised last week that a large part of my desire to work through this issue was because I still want to live in the addiction. Let me explain.

As I mentioned above, I have an addiction to being looked after by a woman.  In fact I still have a feeling in me that if a woman is looking after me, then that is when I will be happiest.  I also have a belief that when you do something good, that you will be rewarded for your efforts.  So what I have been doing for a while now, is working through a small part of the addiction, and then expecting a reward, and that reward (for me) is being looked after by my partner.  This is what I expected my prize to be.  The prize, that I had chosen from the top shelf of the side show tent, for me was to still have my addictions met more fully then ever!

Now if my partner does not then do as I expect, if things don’t improve from my perspective, then I get a bit confused about the whole deal.  I think “Hey God, I’ve been good and worked through something, so where is my prize?  Where is the positive reinforcement for working through my emotions and becoming more loving?  Shouldn’t I be attracting a partner that makes me happy?”  It’s at this point that I think God’s not playing the game within the rules I have (arrogantly) established.

But if we work on the simple premise that God is loving, and gives us everything in harmony with the laws of love, then maybe (just maybe), I am the one that is not looking at this from a loving perspective.  So I started to get angry at God about the rules of the game (I often tell God that he doesn’t know the rules of his own game!), and in the midst of my anger, and cursing, and spitting, I realised that if I am working through my issues and wanting to become more loving, then God will grant me the gift or reward from a perspective of love.  It then dawned on me that every time I work through a little part of my addiction, God is actually giving me the prize of knowing what love is.
This is the ‘prize’.  Knowing what love is, is actually the prize.  Now initially this felt a little underwhelming, because Gods gift feels very different to me having my addictions met. However, I am starting to see that God is probably a bit cleverer than I give him credit for. J

I was discussing this realisation with a friend the other day, and he took it another step further.  He said “Not only is love the prize, but the greater prize is the gift giving that love to others.”  Now for someone who has spent almost a lifetime taking from others, this concept, initially at least, is somewhat challenging.  But it doesn’t take long to see that this is much better way of being.  So I now start the journey of learning to give to others from a loving perspective (God’s definition, not mine).

But my question to others who are attempting to follow ‘The Way’ is, what is the real motivation behind such an endeavour?  What is the real reason behind wanting to work through our emotional baggage?  Do we genuinely want to learn about love?  If so, we have to genuinely want to know God emotionally, as God is the one who knows best what love is, and isn’t.  I for one would have said that “Yes, I want to know God and learn about love”, but the truth was somewhat different once I explored my motivations.  If we are struggling to deal with our addictions, then I think there is a good chance that the prize that we seek is not one of love, but one of further/added addiction, or avoiding the real truth.   

So, what is the Prize you are seeking???

Take Care

Tuesday, 19 May 2015

Parenting Is Easy When We Love

I have two children, age 10 and 8, both boys.  I think they are wonderful, and I feel that it is an honour and a gift that God has granted me the privilege of looking after them. 

This hasn’t always been the case though. 

When I became a father I had no idea what it meant to be a parent.  In fact looking back, I would go as far to say that emotionally I neglected them.  I provided for them physically, but beyond that I expected their mother to take care of everything else.  I went to work 5 days a week, played golf on the weekend, and my lifestyle didn’t really change that much once my children came along.  And to be frank this was the way that I liked it.

My journey into becoming a better parent started when my marriage dissolved, and I became a part-time single parent.  I always felt like I had a responsibility to look after the boys, and so the arrangements were always that the boys would be between me and my ex-wife.  However what I hadn’t realised was the amount of work and responsibility that actually goes into being a parent.  Suddenly I became aware of the physical things that I had been not doing like, bathing, bedtime, meals, school lunches, playtime etc etc.  I was suddenly on a very steep learning curve.

However, parenting is not just about providing for the physical needs of our children.  I have always felt a sense of responsibility for my children.  They are simply a product of everything that they have been taught since before they came into the world.  Their behaviour and attitudes are a direct reflection of my own behaviours, attitudes and feelings.  Hence if they are upset, or in pain, it is because of something that they have picked up from me.  If my child does something ‘wrong’ or ‘naughty’, it is because of what I have taught them.

If we are to be responsible parents, we must learn to be responsible for what we have created.  Children learn primarily through the feelings that are projected at them.  Whether or not we are even aware that we ourselves are projecting those feelings towards our children is irrelevant.  They are showing us clearly what we have taught them.

I found this very confronting, and it took me some time to work through some of the emotions that the boys were reflecting back to me.  At times I refused to believe that this was the case, I stubbornly and arrogantly refused to concede that they were showing me what was inside of myself.  There are times still when I simply do not want to see the truth of what is inside of myself.  However, the truth is right in front of my eyes.

I felt that is wasn’t fair that my children were suffering because I what I had taught them.  They had no choice that I was their Dad.  And so, I started to pray about being a better parent.  I began the process of emotionally taking responsibility for my choice to be a parent.  This was hard at the beginning because I didn’t know what a good parent was. How could I learn when I had no one to show me?

I started working through my own emotional injuries and false beliefs about what it was to be a loving parent from Gods perspective.  In the beginning, I had to face certain truths about my feelings towards them including:

  • I don’t want to be a parent
  • I don’t want my kids
  • I don’t want to look after them
  • I don’t want to provide for them
  • I hate them

I had to honestly feel the lack of love that I had for them, and I discovered a great amount of sadness within me about these things.

However, once I allowed myself to be honest, and feel my way through these feelings, I realised that I was starting to develop a real feeling of love for them.  I started to enjoy their company, their personality and innocence.  I started to become less of a parent and more of a friend.  I started to feel like that they don’t belong to me, and that I am simply a temporary care giver until they go and live their own life.

But the biggest thing that I discovered was that parenting is easy when we love.  It is a simple, joyful, fun and effortless adventure.  I imagine that I have felt a tiny glimpse of the joy that God must have being our parent.  I realised that I don’t need to train them, manage them, or turn them into anything, or force them to be a certain way.  I just need to love them.  Working through my own emotional blockages to love has been the greatest single thing I have done with regards to improving my relationship with my kids.

God has already created their souls, and all I need to do is to create an environment where Gods creation can be expressed.  If I think that I can create a better child than God, then I am going to eventually realise that I am very wrong.

One of the greatest joys in this process is watching the difference in the boys when I have a feeling of love instead of anger, annoyance, frustration, fear, shame or any other non-loving emotion.  I have seen them change in an instant when I come from a space of love, rather than a non-loving space.  It is a bit hard for me to describe but children bloom when love is present, and shrivel when it is absent.  In my opinion, learning about true love, and being a loving parent from Gods perspective, is the greatest gift a parent can give to a child, and I would encourage all parents and carers (and everyone for that matter) to consider learning more about love.  Your children will thank you for it!!


Monday, 18 May 2015

Clueless About What God Wants Me To Be...

I titled this blog “Being a Man: My process of discovery of who I am as a man, and what it is to be a man from Gods perspective.”

It turns out that I have no idea what it is to be a man from Gods perspective.  The only things that I think I know, are the things that I was taught by my parents.  Let me break down that down a bit for you.  This is what I was raised to believe a ‘Man’ was:

  • He goes to work to provide financially for the family
  • Job security is important
  • I am the most important one
  • Your partner will look after the house and the kids
  • Your partner will look after you physically, emotionally, and sexually
  • Get a good education so that you can get a good, secure job
  • Do what will keep your parents happy, and ‘proud’
  • Live the life that they wanted to have, but couldn’t
  • Follow a particular type of sport
  • Have certain views on politics, other people and cultures, and entertainment
  • Love or hate whatever your parents love/hate

I thought that if I did these things, that life would be pretty sweet, and so that’s what I did.  I did everything that I was taught to believe and do.  The above list is not exhaustive, but provides a basic snapshot.  Now for a while I was ‘living the dream’ so to speak.  I was successfully engaging in all of the things that I was taught to do, and thought that I had a good handle of what life was about.

Enter God.

The problem with thinking that you’re pretty clever, is that when someone tells you that you’re wrong, it can be pretty difficult to accept that what they are saying I true.  This is particularly more so, when the person telling you, is not telling you verbally, in writing, or any other way that you are used to…..and is also invisible. 

Turns out …. I have no idea what it is to be a man from Gods perspective!!!!!!!

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God seems to have very different views on what a man is compared to myself, and I find that very difficult to reconcile most of the time.  However, when I eventually to work through some of the emotions involved it does start to make sense that the way God designed it to be is a more loving way.  God wants me, and all men (and women), to know what love is.  God wants me to be a loving person, but I have to make that choice.  The struggle that I seem to have is that I am stubbornly set in my ways, and don’t want to change.  It seems ludicrous that I readily accept the harder way of doing things (what I was taught by my parents), living my life with my heels dug in for whatever reason. 

I’m not very far on this journey, but I’m becoming pretty sure that the things that I was taught are not in harmony with Gods perspective.  With regards to the above list, I think it should look something more like:

  • Discovering and living in my soul desires is important
  • Everyone is loved the same
  • I am responsible for looking after myself physically, emotionally, and sexually
  • I am responsible for looking after my house and children
  • Discover the qualities of my soul
  • Live my life, and make my own choices
  • Learn about Gods views on everything
  • Love everyone and everything

Whilst I don’t know much about the second list, it seems to make more sense than the first one.  Anyway, if I find out any more about what it is to be a man from Gods perspective, I’ll be sure to let you know.


Friday, 18 July 2014

Help for Parents

Hi everyone,

I've added a new page to the blog which will contain some resources for those who would like to incorporate the Divine Truth into Parenting/Caring for their children.  All of the exercises I have done myself and found to be very useful, and has helped to become a much better, and more loving/caring parent.

In your own development, if there is anything that you have found useful, let me know and I can add it to the page (or provide a link to it).

I am also offering that if there is anyone (or groups of people) who would like to me to come and discuss parenting, then just send me an email ( and I'll see what I can organise.  Similarly, if your ok with me coming to stay for a bit, I can offer some first hand feedback on parenting, and relationships with children.

Cheers for now,


Monday, 3 February 2014

Correcting My Untruths about my Marriage Ending

In April 2010, at a Divine Truth seminar, Mary, Cornelius and Jodi did a presentation about reincarnation.  I became involved in this presentation by way of my past relationship with Jodi (my ex ife).  We had been married, and had separated late the previous year.  Some interest and questions arose around the breakup, and I became part of the talk too. However, various untruths were communicated during the presentation by myself, and the intention of the following to correct those untruths.

To give some background:

A few years back, I decided to end my marriage.  However there has been a lot of confusion about the events surrounding the separation, and there have been certain things I have been comfortable for people to believe, although they haven’t been true. I have written this to correct those untruths and misconceptions that I have communicated in the past, with respect to how my marriage ended, and provide an actual account what actually happened.

The history is as follows:
·         I was married when we discovered the teachings of Divine Truth as presented by Jesus (AJ) in 2008.  We began to apply the teachings in our lives and relationship, and this involved being much more truthful, open, and honest with each other, and also working through the emotions that arose as a result.  There were times when this was very confronting, and challenged our previously held beliefs systems about our relationship.  However once the emotions had been felt through, the emotional pain subsided, and the truth of the situation became clearer.

·    During the next 18 months, I was able to work through some of my women emotions, and as I did, I found myself gradually desiring Jodi less and less, and I could feel myself growing apart from her.  This came as a surprise, because up until that point I had assumed, (or hoped) that we were soulmates, and that this process would confirm my belief.  Instead of me finding her more desirable, and attractive, the opposite was happening.  This was quite confronting for me, because this is not the way I had envisaged this were going to work out.  My (erroneous) belief was that as I worked through my emotions, I would find her more attractive and desirable.
·         Throughout this time, we constantly talked about what was happening, and I was open with her, in sharing what I could feel that was going on for myself.
·         In December 2009, I had reached the point where I felt we needed to separate, and so I ended our relationship, as it seemed clear to me that we were not soulmates.   Hence this decision was not a difficult one to make.  I did not make this decision because I was angry with Jodi, nor because of anything that happened in the relationship.  I made the decision because it was the honest and obvious thing to do.
·         In hindsight, I probably should have ended the relationship a bit sooner, however, I chose to stay in the relationship because it met some of my other emotional addictions, namely, still wanting a woman to look after me, sex, and someone to look after our children so that I could still work full time.
·         Even though we had separated, we still lived under the same roof for a few months ‘for the sake of the kids’.  This seemed like a good idea at the time, however upon reflection it was really because I still wanted my ex-wife to look after them, and still mother me and look after the house.
·         At Christmas 2009, I had a feeling that I knew who my soulmate was.  Even at this stage (and the months following) I was still content with me pursuing someone who I thought was my soulmate, whilst at the same time still living with Jodi. 
·         After a while, Jodi felt that she had to move out, as the situation was unloving to herself.  So even though I had initiated the separation, I wasn’t prepared to be responsible for my own decision, and take the necessary action to move out myself.

Upon reflection, I’m not proud of my actions after I decided to initiate the separation.  The separation I was clear about, however the thought of having to live by myself, start looking after the kids by myself, work less, frightened me so much, that I chose to be unloving to Jodi, and expected her to still do all the ‘motherly’ duties, purely for my comfort.

I have previously given the impression that Jodi left me to be with someone else, and that I was the victim, or poor guy, who was left alone because of the decision of Jodi to leave our marriage.  I have also given the impression that the Divine Truth will result in a marriage being broken, and it leave you a poor broken person, who is the ‘victim’ of learning the truth.  This is simply not true.  The truth is that I portrayed this image in order for people to feel sorry for me, and to get a lot of sympathetic emotions, particularly from women. 

The Divine Truth allows you to what is real in a relationship, and what is not.  What happens after that is a choice for the individual.  I am so glad that I had the opportunity to discover the truth about my marriage, as it has resulted in a lot of personal growth.

There have been numerous ascertains made that AJ (and Divine Truth) has broken up families, marriages, and relationships.   In my experience, this has not been the case.  Never at any stage did AJ or Mary suggest or imply that Jodi and I were/were not soulmates.  Nor did they suggest or imply that we should or shouldn’t be together.  It was my personal decision to leave the marriage.  We did discuss our relationship at times, but the advice was always to just keep working through our emotions and we will eventually realise the truth.

What actually happened during the presentation:
·         I engaged in the talk so that I could tell my story
·         I gave the impression that it was Jodi that left me, to be with Cornelius
·         I wanted to be seen as ‘poor guy’ and the ‘victim’ of Jodi and Cornelius getting together
·         I gave the impression that Jodi moved out and took everything, and left me with nothing which was not the case
·         I wanted women to feel sorry for me, and make me feel better, rather then me dealing with my own emotions.  I received a lot of sympathy from the audience, especially women.
·         I was/still am hooked into a feeling of wanting the woman to make me feel special
·         I liked the special feeling of (potentially) being the ex-partner of 1 of the 14
·         I was demanding that women make me feel better, and mother me
·         I had the feeling that I knew how to work through things on the Divine Love Path, and knew what the Divine Love Path was about, and I projected this onto the audience.  This is not the case as evidenced by my lack of progress in my subsequent relationship

I have to apologise to:

·         AJ and Mary for ‘highjacking’ their talk for me to tell my own story which was not based in truth, and gave the impression that the Divine Truth is destructive and breaks up families and relationships.  And for AJ and Mary having to continually correct the untruth with the media, that the Divine Truth is destructive to relationships and families.  Whilst I struggle with the truth at times, I don’t feel that it is destructive, and the Divine Truth actually highlights the truth about relationships, and this is a good thing.  I have found the Divine Truth to be extremely beneficial, particularly in relation to my relationship with my children, and becoming a better parent. 
·         The audience (both on the day, and anyone that listened to it via the Divine Truth website) for communicating that feeling that I knew how to work through things on the Divine Love Path, and knew what the Divine Love Path was about.  This is not the case as evidenced by my lack of progress in my subsequent relationship
·         My lack of morals and ethics for allowing this to happen in the first instance, but also for not correcting the untruths sooner, and perpetuating the untruth for all this time.

Some people are curious, and have questions, as to what happened, and so to answer some of these questions I have provided a response to a few:

Did Divine Truth cause in your breakup?

Learning about the Divine Truth emotionally enabled me to see the relationship from a more loving and truthful perspective.  As I learned more truth about my relationship and myself it became clearer that my view of it was flawed, and out of harmony with love.  I guess as we learn more, we see things differently and apply our new teachings to our existing situations.  Certainly, the Divine Truth helped me to realise the truth, but the decision to end the relationship was mine. 

If you hadn’t of found out about Divine Truth, do you think that you would still be married?

This is a difficult question as it is hypothetical, however, because I was in such an addictive relationship, I would probably have to say yes.  That is not to say that something else might not have happened in the meantime to change the relationship anyway.   Ultimately, the end would have been the same though, because eventually I would have realised what was happening, it just might have taken a lot longer.  In fact this is one of the great benefits of the Divine Truth, in that if you want to apply it in your life, the truth of the situation can become clear quite rapidly if your open to seeing it.  If your not open then it takes a little longer.

You have previously described your relationship with Jodi as ‘perfect’.  Do you still hold that view?

No.  It is obvious to me now, that the relationship was built around addictive emotional needs being met, and was not one based in love.  I have previously described it as perfect in the past because, I got what I wanted, we never argued, I could do whatever I wanted without doing anything in return, and all of my physical, sexual, and (erroneous) emotional needs were met.  It was a relationship that was built on a barter system, whereby the unconscious arrangement was, “I’ll give you what you want, if you give me what I want.”

Truth was absent from the relationship right up until the end when we started applying the Divine Truth to the relationship.  This quickly highlighted that we were not being truthful about the relationship, and our feelings about it.  I was living what I thought was a good relationship, not living a relationship based on truth and love as I am starting to understand it.

Do you ever regret the decision that you made?
Once we were separated, a lot of addictions were highlighted and were in my face for the first time in my life.  This was very confronting for me at the time, and some the emotional injuries that were exposed I found difficult to deal with at the time.  There were times when I wanted to return to the addictive relationship.  However once the emotions had been felt through, it became very clear to me that I had made the right decision.

Has your experience helped you in your new relationship?
Not really, actually probably not at all.  I had worked through a lot of emotions in my marriage, relating to feelings unloved by a woman, however I failed to address my demands and addictions relating to wanting a woman to do things for me and make me feel special.  When I entered a new relationship, my new partner did not have the emotions of wanting to look after me, hence my addictions were exposed for the first time.  Unfortunately, I chose not to deal with those emotions, and instead I rejected my new partner and just got angry at her.  This has resulted in me causing her much pain, which I also now have to work through.

If you dealt with your addictions, would you still have the same pain in that relationship?
No.  There have been times when I have worked through a small addiction, and I have felt a large amount of love and desire for that person.  However, as I have generally chosen not to deal with my addictions that general outcome is a painful one.  I have chosen not to deal with my addictions, and I have honoured my arrogance and fear, over love for my partner, and when this happens the outcome can never be a good one.

How have the kids been affected?
It is my experience that children are fine with a situation, provided that parents are owning their own emotions.  We were very open and honest with the boys throughout the entire process, and told them everything that was happening.  The only times the boys became upset with any part of the situation was when either myself or Jodi, had emotions that were being projected onto the boys, as we weren’t owning them.   I have had many times where I have been processing seemingly intense emotions (anger, through to fear, through to causal) and the boys are happy to play and have not been affected by my emotional processing at all.  In fact I have had them say to me that they prefer it, and It feels better for them, when I am dealing with my emotions (anger and fear included).  Processing your emotions is also highly beneficial to children, as they no longer have to feel the projection coming from you.  There have been many times when I can see how my children have changed after I have felt though an emotion.  They are generally happier, more considerate and loving, and the parent/child relationship changes greatly for the better.

Isn’t it better though, that children are raised in a “stable” household with both a mother and father?
This was one of my previously held beliefs as well, whereby I though that the balance of a mother and father was the best thing for a childs development.  My belief now is that children thrive in an environment of truth and love.  There was a short time where Jodi and I were separated and living in the same house for “the sake of the children”, however this was not a healthy environment, and it was not an arrangement based on love or truth.  For us to stay together for that reason was teaching the boys that it is okay to live a lie, and that it is okay to live in an addictive relationship.  This is not something that I want to teach my children anymore (as much I know how).

Any other questions can be forwarded to me at

Thank You


Monday, 18 June 2012

Getting Real About Parenting....

I’ve been reflecting a lot of late about why parents are so unloving and cruel to their own children.  I’ve also been reflecting a lot about why God enables us the free will to hurt our children.  After all, what choice does the child have with regard to the environment it is born into?  Who is there to protect the child against something over which it has no control?  Why did God allow my parents to be unloving to me?

I suppose the first question is, what constitutes hurt?  This is how I see it – any projection of annoyance or anger, verbally abusing or chastising, belittling, humiliating, yelling, physical abuse (smacking). Or let me put it this way – any feeling towards a child that is not a projection of love.

Let’s establish some basic principles.  The expression or projection of anger towards another is simply a refusal on our part to feel what something that is being triggered within us.  No-one outside of ourselves is responsible for us getting angry, they are simply a trigger.  Now our anger simply overlies a fear that we don’t want to feel, and our fear overlies a level of grief that we don’t currently want to feel.

We are unloving to our children, simply because we don’t want to feel our own feelings.

I’ve attached a link to a video, showing the physical abuse of a child, which the father feels is fully justified.  Thanks Fiona ( for posting this for others to find.  This man takes his abuse to the physical level, but reflect on the times when you have been this angry with your children, as the emotional projection at them is also damaging.  Ask yourself if you really think God wants you to parent this way.  Would you  treat your pet this way?  Would you treat someone elses child this way?  If you did this to a random person walking down the street, you would be arrested and charges with assault.  Why then does a different standard seem to apply for a parent and their own child?

Take an honest look into the eyes of your child, and see the fear that is there for them when you are angry with them.  They have no understanding what is happening to them.  As far as they are concerned they were just going about their business, and all of a sudden, they have this big, angry person in front of them getting angry, maybe yelling and worse, physically harming them.  Put yourself in their shoes, and it is not hard to imagine the terror that they must be feeling at that moment.

If you feel angry, be angry, but go somewhere else to do it.  If you want to yell at something, yell at something, but yell at something that won’t be hurt by it. Note I said something, not someone.  If you want to hit something, hit something, but hit something other than the precious gift you helped to bring into this world.

There is much, much more to say about parenting, and particularly parenting from Gods perspective, but that will be another day.

Take Care